| pros and cons |
[Jul. 1st, 2006|11:23 am] |
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So I graduated from high school two days ago and I'm glad it is over. I've been looking foward to this point in time for a long time. T commeorate this time I'm going to make a list of things I like/don't like about high school.
The things I don't like about high school:
1)Popular music- I never like Rap or Pop and I don't think I ever will, I don't like the music and I don't like what it stands for.
2)Different for the sake of being different-I don't like it when people act different from they way would act normally because people already act like that. Everybody is different you don't need to change who you are to be unique no matter how normal you seem to be.
3)cliques- Worst social atmosphere possable
4)Sex-Not just the fact that it's happening but mostly the attutiude that is taken towards it in genral.
5)Drinking-I don't like underage drinking and I hate the fact that people just drink to get drunk.
6) And it's ok- Not only do poeple drink It has become completely acceptable there are parents who help their kids get alcohol because the want to have control over it. Not to mention the fact that drinkiin can even be found even among the most sucessful students. It just isn'r vewed as a problem any more.
7)Drugs
8)Somking-I felt good about how few people smoked around here until i got to see the sidewalk in front of QEH between classes.
9)Working instead of learning- I spent much more time working in high school than i did learing. If i wanted to work I'd get a job.
10) People actiong tough- The gangsta' image just sucks.
Things I like about High school:
1)With that many people your age you're bound to meet someone worth befrending
2) It's over!
God bless and happy Canada day,
Jordan |
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[May. 5th, 2006|01:34 pm] |
| You Are a Dreaming Soul | 
Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world
So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...
But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult
You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.
Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.
Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul |
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| Here I go again |
[Apr. 27th, 2006|10:25 pm] |
Yeah that's right I'm lonely...again. It isn't as bad this time, over all I'm still pretty happy but it is still a problem I want to deal with.
I'm tired of my social life being completely contained within events. I like all the stuff I do but I'd just love the chance to hang out with some friends.
I may have said this before, but the way I see it when most people go to a place like LIFE TEEN or CCO they either go with people who are their close friends or participate as an aside from their everyday friendships. Not that there is anything wrong with that It's just the way things are. My problem is that these things are my best chance to make some close friends but other people aren't looking for that. Of course there are exceptions; people do make friendships through these programs that go well beyond these programs but this never seems to include me, and when I see it happening I get jealous which obviously does nothing to help my situation.
I've made attempts to improve my situation but they have either been unsuccessful or created their own problems.
I'm no longer sure what I mean to accomplish by posting this in my blog but is should do me some good to put this out here.
God bless,
Jordan
PS:a reminder to those w/o LJ accounts unless you really want to post anonymously plz tell me who you are in your comments. |
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| I once was lost, but now I'm found. was blind... |
[Feb. 3rd, 2006|12:39 am] |
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| [ | music |
| | Fire-The O.C. Supertones | ] |
and I still am but now I have Jesus to guide me. I can't seem to get a clear picture of where I'm headed but I think I'm headed the right way. I can only see what God reveals to me. Over the last while I've been able to see when there was going to be a turning point in my life but I haven't been able to see the nature or the cause of the turn till either when it happens or well after it happens.
Today is one of those times I've just finished the exams for a troublesome semester and will soon be starting a pretty easy semester. I'm going to be able to do something with this freedom but I have no clue what. I just hope my hunch that it is going to be something good is right. I could have an interesting 7 months ahead of me.
God bless
Jordan |
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| The time is near |
[Jan. 24th, 2006|04:37 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | Grounded-The O.C. Supertones | ] |
Ignite was so much fun! I learned so much. My top three charisms were giving, service and knowledge in that order. This didn't surprise me but it got me thinking. My ability to give could be of greater importance than anything else. My rock bottom scores in areas that had anything to do with anything miraculous reminded me about how God acts (and has always acted) in my life: through the brilliant and subtle manipulation of the mundane. God can't just do anything, He can do anything any way He pleases.
I'm looking forward to the end of the semester. I've got so much stuff I'd like to do and I'm confident that the upcoming semester should free up some time to do it. If things go well for the next 7 month's stuff is going to get done.
God bless
Jordan |
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| arg... |
[Jan. 13th, 2006|11:13 pm] |
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| |  discontent | ] |
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| | More Than Useless -Relient K | ] |
I didn't have a bad day but I'm feeling crappy anyway. I gotta do something to shake this feeling of lonliness and uselessness quick. At least I know tommrow will be fun, things will be fine in the end.
God bless
Jordan |
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| Ignite!!! ect. |
[Jan. 11th, 2006|10:24 pm] |
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| | Happily looking foward | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Heart of Worship | ] |
Today I found out I've bee selected to participate in Ignite(was there ever a doubt).I'm so happy.
I now have plans for the next two weekends, I might be getting a trumpet soon, things at school are going fine, and I'm getting my prayer life back in order. I just feel like praising god. Thing can still get better and I think they will. Sept-Dec, 2005 is a thing of the past and I'm better off for it. Things are back on track now I just need to get far enough down that track to reap some benefits.
I've even decided who I'm going to vote for in the election but that still might be subject to change and there is no way I'm telling anyone.
God bless
Jordan |
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| Saturdays |
[Jan. 7th, 2006|10:55 pm] |
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So another saturday is almost over. It didn't turn out quite the way I wanted it to but I did better than I have been doing over the past couple of months.
I've come to realize how much of my menial well being counts on how I spend my saturday afternoons and evenings. Today I got a better idea of how to spend them if I'm stuck at home alone, but it would still do me good to avoid that situation. I hope to accomplish this next weekend.
Ignite, the youth leadership program the archdiocese is running, starts up this month and while I have no way of knowing if I'll be one of the 20 people that get in I'd say my chances are good. If I do end up in the program I'm sure it will be a ton of fun and a great learning experance. All in all a pretty good use of 3 of my weekends over the next few months.
God bless
Jordan |
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[Jan. 1st, 2006|10:40 pm] |
A note to "Anonymous" posters. I really like knowing who is commenting on my posts. so please sign you post or give me a hint as to you are unless you have a particular reason to stay Anonymous.
God bless
Jordan |
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| Bleak. Bleak indeed |
[Dec. 31st, 2005|03:29 pm] |
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It would appear my previous entries portray too bleak a message. No bleaker than I intended at the time but bleaker than my life really is. The reasoning for this is fairly identifiable.
Over the past four months being alone more than strictly necessary has become very closely linked to sadness in my mind. This is now true to the point where it nearly impossible for me to be happy while I'm alone without a particular purpose. The opposite is true when I'm with people. The problem is that I'm always alone when I'm blogging so bleak posts come much more easily than happy ones.
I thank God for that fact that I'm never truly alone because as a result I'm never truly sad for if I were truly sad the situation would indeed be very bleak.
It mustn't be forgotten that I am lonely, but it must not go unmentioned that I don't feel unloved one bit; just lonely.
God bless and Happy New Year!
Jordan |
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| Friends, New Years ect. |
[Dec. 30th, 2005|05:15 pm] |
Have you ever wanted to do something and known God wanted you to do it but either couldn't do it or had a very hard time doing it because of your own personality flaws. That is basically my situation right now.
It started nearly a year ago when I first got involved with my faith. From that point on I slowly but surely drifted away from all of my old friends. That in and of itself wasn't a big deal because my reason for almost completely losing all but one of those friendships was a good one.
Now I must take some time to define what friendship means to me. There are four parts to friendship: trust, respect, being comfortable around the person, and spending time with the person. Currently I have one old friend and one new friend that fit three of the four parts. As far as spending much time with these two people I currently don't but that can change. So yay I have 2 fiends.
The thing that's really bothering me is the fact I've met so many people that I trust and respect over the last year but haven't really made friends out of more than one of them. There are two reasons for this one that will go unmentioned because the only visible way to overcome it is time. The other has a lot to do with how I've come to meet these people. Most people have a group of close friends by the time they reach high school so they don't go to church youth events to make friends, in fact they often go with friends. This is true even for me I didn't start doing this kind of thing to make friends I started doing this kind of thing to come to know God better.
But what am I to do when I come to a point where I know one of the things God wants me to do most is to make some friends. Since no one else is really looking for friends I guess I'll have to take some social initiative, but wait that is my single greatest weakness. I still got to do it so here is my New Years resolution: Make some friends.
God bless
Jordan |
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| Christmas '05 |
[Dec. 24th, 2005|11:11 am] |
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So Christmas isn't quite turning out the way I had hoped. It isn't like I wanted a whole bunch of stuff and don't see myself getting it, quite the opposite I've purchased less presents than I would've liked to.It isn't like I missed anyone who was expecting a present from me so it isn't a big deal. Because of this let down in giving I've realized that Christmas isn't much more about giving than it is about receiving. What it is really about is Jesus. It isn't that I didn't know that already but i'm having a hard time feeling it emotionally. I guess part of my problem is that trying to open myself up to Jesus has become such a part of my daily life that I don't know how to do it in a special way on Christmas.
Merry Christmas and God bless
Jordan |
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| Need to whine? Start a Livejournal |
[Dec. 12th, 2005|03:24 pm] |
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| |  Your guess is as good as mine | ] |
If anyone ever told you life is easy they lied. The past four months of my life have been an emotional roller coaster filled with confusion and frustration. The worst part isn't the stuff that has happened to me it's the fact that my emotional well being has been rather fragile and somewhat independent of what is actually happening to me. I have two problems that have really contributed to it all the first being my procrastination which I won't talk about at any length because it is something I have to(and have started to) deal with by myself.
The second is my inability to have any social impact whatsoever.(I'm now going to say some stuff that I know isn't really true. But that hasn't stopped it from feeling like it is true) No matter what I do it is like people forget I exist as soon as I'm no longer around. The only times I get to do anything with people is when I take initiative or if I'm drawn in to some sort of activity by association to a larger group of people. It has been at least three years since the last time someone has actually phoned me to ask if I want to do anything. It just feels like I'm completely superfluous to society, if I were to drop dead right now people would care and be sad and whatnot, but I can't see it having a significant impact on anyone's life.It just seems that I don't have a big enough impact on anyone's life to make they give much thought to my existence outside of my presence.
But I'm sure I'll get though it I just needed to vent.
God Bless
Jordan |
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